I am sick, filthy, and disgusting.
I do not deserve to be loved by humans, my own kind, for I have betrayed them time and time again. I have deceived them to their face, and yet they still trust me.
I am sick, filthy and disgusting. Those I claim to love the most, I let down the hardest.
Including myself. I love myself more than anything else in my life. I am selfish and filled with hatred of all that is good.
It runs in through my veins,and my bones are made of it. My very flesh is infested with evil, the harder I try and run away from it, the harder I fall.
No one knows my secret. And those who do know it, do not understand why it is a secret. What I stand for makes me fall the hardest.
I am sick, filthy, and disgusting.I am sick in the mind, spirit and soul. I do not deserve to be loved by the human race, my own kind.
I am sick, filthy, and disgusting. If i do not expect to be loved by my own flesh and blood, then how much more should I be hated by the One who breathes starts from His mouth. The One that is pure light, the One whose mere presence annihilates the darkness that creeps in and around me.
I am sick, filthy, and disgusting. I stood before the Judge of all that exists, simply because it exists by Him and because of Him.
I waited for His condemnation.
He looked toward me, and His eyes were fire, and I wished to be consumed among its flames.
And He spoke. His voice was music and rolling thunder.
“What have you to defend yourself?”, the Great Light questioned.
His voice had brought me to my knees, and I wept, for I knew that my time had come.
It was as though the One knew the whispers in my mind, and He spoke again, and He said, “I know you, for I love you. I love you simply because I created you in the depths of the earth. And I created you, because I desired you.”
I looked up slowly, and I looked straight in His eyes, for He enabled me to.
“You are worthy, magnificent and loved. For I, have made you like Me, and you will serve Me in My kingdom with honor and valor. A knight in the kingdom is what you are now, live worthy of it.”
I slowly backed away, and as I drew further away from the Great Light, I drew closer to the human race, and it was sick, filthy and disgusting, simply because it did not know that it was worthy, magnificent and loved.
